Honesty

Honesty at it's finest. I am scared, afraid, longing, yearning, heartbroken, doubtful, and yet so hopeful. I am a sinner, a doubting Thomas, but I know that God can use me. Somehow, someway, someday. He loves me and has my best in mind. When I am at the end of my rope he holds me in his hands and leads me. Where there was two sets of footsteps there is now one, and then there is two again. He never does ANYTHING at the wrong time. He isn't late, lazy or unmotivated. He loves me so greatly I don't know what to do with it. But yet, He always knows what to do with me. Out of the billions and trillions of people to ever live, He has a specific plan for each so intricate, it is impossible to imagine or describe. I can only try to give back some of the love He gave me. It will never be enough. I can work everyday 24/7 every day of my life, live to 120, and never make it up.

It's crazy

Such crazy love