God is good all the time!

Prayer

Dear Lord God, I pray You will show me who or bring someone into my life who will be there for me no matter what You will for my life. I pray that they will be a role model for me and that they will help me grow spiritually in You. I'm really hurting Lord God because I'm looking for someone to turn to who can help me to work to achieve what I want to do for You, and can be there to help me when I fall. I pray I may be of some help to this person as well, and You will lead us both in Your will for our lives. I miss Honduras, but I ask You to make me patient, to help me understand no matter where You bring me. Thank You for all You have brought me through. You are an amazing God and have given me so much to be thankful for. Everything You do/give for me/me I should be thankful for. Amen.

Thanksgiving!!

I am very thankful for all of my blessings this Thanksgiving! Soy muy agradecido para todas de mi bendiciones este dia de accion de Gracias. God is so good!! Dios es muy bueno!! I want to thank You Lord for everything You have given me. Yo quiero a Gracias Senor para todo Usted todo lo que me ha dado. I am so blessed. Yo soy muy bendita.

When you think about Thanksgiving, what pops into mind? Do you think about everything you can get the night/day after during 'Black Friday'? Are you ready to stuff your belly with food and forget about the many blessings God has given us? Like our family, our friends, Himself? His Son, who bled in a torturous death that made recompense for our deadly sins. Our kind neighbor, who watches the home when we are gone. That friend, who never gives up on you whether you try to rid yourself of them or not; what a blessing they bring to your life and their encouragement to you pressing on. A lot of times we lose sight of what really matters during Thanksgiving. Now I don't want to scare anyone away with thankfulness cliches... but I'm not going to daintily touch the subject like it doesn't matter. Because, in all actuality, it does. I could run my thoughts off for 100 pages and it might not get to you. But that's your decision. If I have anything that could help you along in your faith journey, I'm happy. If I can't, then maybe I have failed. But I am going to try, and that is a fact.
I have suffered with depression, OCD, and general anxiety disorder for two and a half years. Growing up you could tell that I had more fear than others in certain situations; my parents left us with my oldest sister as a baby-sitter for the first time, and I was beyond upset and afraid. You look back at my younger diary and see some of the pain written in some of the lines. A question I have struggled with is.. Why?
Why God, was I made THIS way? What purpose does it serve? I have wrestled with that question for years. Yet, I haven't found a sufficient answer for my brain yet. Why does a fourteen year old girl have to feel isolated, full of pain, and so anxious it's pretty embarrassing? Why did I have such strong morals and convictions that breaking them was catastrophic for my brain? I wondered and wondered, spending many quiet moments abuzz in my head, trying to find the answer. I read books looking for solutions, but nothing hit me. I was able to help others by sharing what I had gone through, therefore connecting with others in my situation. Yet, I couldn't control the very behaviors and feelings in myself. Why?
Trust in God. Letting go. I could say it five million times and I might just taste the tip of those phrases. Why is it so terribly hard just to



LET GO

GIVE MY TRUST TO GO

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It's as simple as this:

You have to fall in love.

WHAT? Fall in love?

Yes.

With whom?

JESUS.
If you don't love someone, or even like them particularly, you are NOT going to trust them. If you don't trust someone to take care of your feelings and desires, you will never share with them meaningfully. Yes, you may blurt out your feelings to some random kid, but you probably aren't going to trust them with your life or come back to them again and again for advice. Just think about it. I have found so much with falling in love with Jesus. I don't know all the reasons behind why I am the way I am, but I do know this: God is going to take it all and USE it for His purposes. If you are expecting me to say: 'As simple as that', I won't. Absolutely not. If we were all perfect people. Yeah sure, simple as that. But the sad fact is we are an imperfect people living hopeless lives unless we have an Almighty Savior in our lives. It's hard to trust. We want to be in control. But because it's hard doesn't make it bad. It's amazing. We have another home, being prepared and thought out for EACH and EVERY one of us. Amen to that. So, I will end with saying, I am thankful for each and every aspect of me and how I was made. I am thankful with my struggles because God will use every one to His Kingdom's advantage and to mine. Isn't that amazing?! ~ Love, Delaney

Hole in my heart, whole in the Lord

I don't know when this is going to stop hurting Lord. I just want to cry and cry. I know crying is not going to help, but I'm not quite sure what to do at this moment. I miss Honduras so very much. It's like an empty hole in my heart, that can't be filled. I believe You gave me this desire, but I don't know what to do next, or who to talk to. Please help me have peace in this time. Thank You for everything You have given me, including the wonderful people of La Villa.
Amen

1 Peter 5:10

1 Pedro 5:10(NVI)
10 Y después de que ustedes hayan sufrido un poco de tiempo, Dios mismo, el Dios de toda gracia que los llamó a su gloria eterna en Cristo, los restaurará y los hará fuertes, firmes y estables.

1 Peter 5:10(NIV)
10 And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.

Muchas gracias Senor Dios!

Thank you so much Lord God!

Judgements hurt

When people form their own conclusions about you, and they are wrong,it really really hurts... People want to tell you who you are, and what your reasons are for everything. It makes me really angry. God has put a desire in my heart, and some people see it just as another obsession. My heart yearns for a country and to do good works there for Jesus, yet someone tells me its only about a certain person. Yes I love the people there a lot, but I have been trying really hard to make this not about me, because it isn't. I truly DO want God's will for my life, and I would LOVE to help Him in Honduras, where I feel I am called. Judgements are harsh, and they hurt. Lord God, help me pass judgement on no one. I give all that up to You, because I know it hurts.

El Amor y Dios

a veces este hace mi sentir como un cuchillo en mi corazon, y a veces este hace mi sentir asombroso. Un amor de un pais y una gente es maravilloso, pero muy duro. Dios sabe que tiene en Su plan para mi, y El es en control siempre. Pero para mi, una persona quien es no perfecto, es muy dificil esperar un tiempo sin este lugar... Por favor Dios ayuda mi vivir para Usted y no para mi. Su plan es mejor que el plan de mi. Es dificil para mi, pero Usted puede hacer todo en Su tiempo. Si Usted quiere mi en Honduras, un dia iré alli. Yo extrano toda de La Villa MUCHA!! Me encanta aquella gente.. Por favor ayuda mi ser fiel siempre a Usted, y caminar en Usted forma. Te amo mi Senor Dios... Por favor Senor Dios bendiga toda mi familia por sangre y por el espiritu.... Gracias, Muchas gracias para todo Usted han hecho. Usted esta siempre asombroso... Gracias, Gracias Dios!!
Amen

One day at a time

One day at a time is a hard saying. It takes a lot of strength to go through with it. Strength that we just don't have. Instead of turning to God, we a lot of times turn to ourselves, our friends, our leaders. Don't get me wrong, talking to other people can be helpful, but they can't reveal the plan for your life or direct your every right move. They cannot give you the strength that you so desperately need. When you are feeling weak, you must turn to the Creator of the world. Our Savior, Jesus Christ. Sometimes the days seem to get harder, sometimes better. I struggle with my thoughts, my doubts, my wants, my prayers even. I cry out to God, thinking, WHY HAVEN'T YOU DONE SOMETHING YET? His gentle way just wants me to be patient. If I could just wait, my life would be so much more peaceful. Yet our human nature wants control. Here, there, now, later we say to God. Do we really think that the one who designed our complex beings and formed the world can't even direct the paths of our lives? Do we say, no God, not Your will be done, not Your way in my life? If we say we want God to change us, do we really mean it? If we do, we must show it in our attitude and behavior, especially when no one is around. We must learn discipline, trust, and patience. We must learn to run to the arms of the One who yearns for us! Instead of yearning for something of this world, can we yearn for God's path? Instead of putting all our faith and trust in a person who will fail us, why don't we put all of our faith and trust into the One who NEVER fails?? NEVER. Take a deep breath and take that in. Never is a pretty big word. How are we even going to comprehend FOREVER we will be with God, and ALWAYS that He loves us, if we can't even trust and understand that God will NEVER fail us. I'm just another person of this world, but I believe God has a specific and wonderful purpose for my life. I fail, I try to direct my own life. NEVER again do I want to stray from God's way. But it will happen. Someday, somehow. But if I trust Him to keep working with me, I have blessed assurance, Jesus IS mine :) God bless you all this Thanksgiving..