When confused, get down on your knees

I'm not sure where to step next. It feels like I know what to do right then, and then I lose the way. But I never lose Jesus, and He never forgets which way to lead me. I just have to listen. Sometimes I feel so ashamed to doubt the All-Powerful, All-Knowing, All-Present Savior of my life. But when I feel like hitting my head against a wall is when I fall to my knees and give up. It really makes you realize how human and mortal you are.

"I'm falling on my knees offering all of me. Jesus You're all this heart is living for."

Contentment

Contentment -- “An internal satisfaction which does not demand changes in external circumstances”—Holman Bible Dictionary.

*Sigh* I am not doing good with my contentedness and patience right now. I feel this sense of urgency to be in Honduras and working for the Lord. But what if He is saying no right now? What if He is saying just wait a little longer? Or a lot longer? Things could change tomorrow, or they could change in 10 years. Maybe I'm not supposed to go at all.

But. You know what? I can still be content wherever God has me and be a light that shines for His amazing glory. That is my hearts desire and my life's purpose, to glorify my beloved Savior. I have "An internal satisfaction" no matter WHERE I am as long as I am searching for and living out God's purpose for me RIGHT now.

Philippians 4:11b-13 "I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. 12 I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. 13 I can do all this through him who gives me strength."

Wow. I'm hungry for this truth. I want to know the secret of being content in any and every situation. Yet it's right under my nose. I CAN do all this THROUGH HIM WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH.

Dear Father God,

You are all powerful Jehovah. Nothing, NOTHING in my life is too hard, too confusing for You. You know the minds and hearts of my parents, my authorities, and of ME. You know my passion for Your work and the mission field. You have my whole life planned out. You know the number of sand grains on the seashore just as You know the very hairs on my head. Nothing will happen to me before You have known it. This is blessed assurance to me. You have given me a passion to serve You, and I hope to carry this out one day in central America, but that is up to You. I'm feeling really confused, impatient, and not content. I believe though that You have placed the sense of urgency to serve in my heart, but also that I need to trust You and be content where I am at now. I put my whole life into YOUR hands. Let Your way be done within me. Please help me and my parents come into unity about the decision of my serving and where, please give us peace in Your holy name. Nothing else matters but doing Your will. Thank You for all the beautiful gifts You have placed in my life, including my family, my boyfriend, my church, my friends, my shelter, clothes, and food. You have NEVER failed to provide a way for me and all Your children. Please lead us Your children today, let us be a light for You. Please heal the strife and brokenness in our families by Your amazing love. Please provide for us, and let Your lost ones be found. Let everything happen in Your time, please oh Lord. Please protect us all from the evil one. I am Your servant, do what You want with my life to glorify You and Your Son. Please lead me with Your Holy Spirit. I love YOU!!!!!! Amen. Your daughter, Dee

There was a price, be THANKFUL!

Something I've been thinking about lately... A lot of us become lazy or indifferent and stop doing what God has called us to do. We simply go on with our lives as if nothing has changed. What is a christian if we simply do whatever we please. The only difference is that we have "fire insurance". Is that ALL you accepted Christ for?? To simply know you won't be in Hell for all eternity? Or are you ...truly thankful for what Christ has suffered and sacrificed for you. We were dirt under his feet and He still chose us as his prized possession. If someone saved you from harm, you would feel indebted to them. Why don't we feel the same towards a perfect God who came for us, died a torturous death to save us, who were nothing!! Why don't we strive each day to save the ones lost? We worry about our material possessions when there are children living in dumps in central america, witch doctors in africa, and homeless people outside our doors. Stand up people of God and let your light shine.

Mark 8:36,37 What will you gain, if you own the whole world but destroy yourself? What could you give to get back your soul?
Romans 6:1-4
1 What shall we say, then? Shall we go on sinning so that grace may increase? 2 By no means! We are those who have died to sin; how can we live in it any longer? 3 Or don’t you know that all of us who were baptized into Christ Jesus were baptized into his death? 4 We were therefore buried with him through baptism into death in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory of the Father, we too may live a new life.

Be like the little children

Singing five little monkeys jumping on the bed with Piper :) Someone once told me that they would love to always be with a little child and have their attitude. There is nothing like the joy and faith that comes out of one of these. ;)
Matthew 18:3
3 And he said: “Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.
Matthew 11:25
25 At that time Jesus said, “I praise you, Father, Lord of heaven and earth, because you have hidden these things from the wise and learned, and revealed them to little children.
Cantando cinco monos pequenos con Piper :) Alguien dijo a mi que el quieria estar con un nino pequeno siempre y tener su actitud. No hay nada como la esperanza y la fe que viene afuera de un de ellos..
>Mateo 18:3, 11:25

God works in miraculous ways!

So I haven't written in a while. So much has been going on that I haven't jotted down, so to say, here. Life goes on and on and you never know where God is going to lead you next. Suffice for now, here goes. God has showed up in amazing ways. I was really struggling with a hard situation. My boyfriend told me that his parents wanted him to go into the army, and I was like "What God? what is this? Nothing can get worse!!" But I prayed, even through my foolish doubts. I prayed "God, let us both be where You want us to be WHEN You want us to." AND GOD CAME THROUGH AS HE ALWAYS DOES. Mi novio was rejected because he is a minor!! THANK YOU ALL POWERFUL GOD. It makes you see how little you can see ahead and how quick the human is sometimes to doubt. But it also shows the amazing, all-able power of God. GRACIAS A DIOS!!
Dee

God will make clear everything in the end

"Got to reach for something or fall for anything!"
1 Corinthians 13:12 "Now we see things imperfectly as in a cloudy mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity. All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God now knows me completely." (NLT)