God is good ALL THE TIME!!

God is good all the time, all the time, God is good

Thank You my Yeshua for mi familia en Honduras. Por favor protect them y bendiga ellos. Take my life, it is Yours, to glorify You. Por favor regresar mi para Honduras en Tu tiempo si Tu will it be so. Gracias oh Dios para Tu amor grande!! Te Amo mi Savior!
Amen

Over-Emotionality breeds... discontent.

I feel so incredibly emotional right now. It really doesn't feel good. I really need to talk to someone, but I'm not sure who yet. I know God is in control. My human nature just likes to take me down. Dear God, help me be strong and with Your strength overcome my weaknesses. Thank You for everything You have blessed me with. I have far more than I deserve. Thank You. I pray You will reveal Your will for me in Your time. Help me be patient until that time comes, every faithful and hopeful. Please help me not give up. Please make my paths straight for Your name's sake. For Your glory, not mine. Help me throw away all selfishness and cry to You for mercy which I so desperately need. Please help there be someone in my life to encourage me to keep pressing on if this is Your will. Or to encourage me in a different way if You will that. Help me be filled with Your spirit and be able to encourage others on Your path to righteousness. All to Your great Majesty and Glory! Please protect my brothers and sisters in La Villa and at home. Please bless my love and his family, and my family. Please protect them. Please help ALL my brothers and sisters be fed by Your spirit and please help the leaders to feed others Your word, and be fed by You. I love YOU, I love YOU, TE amo!!
Amen, Delaney

Homesick for Honduras

Extremely homesick for Honduras. Not in a great mood unfortunately... Aughh I really dislike being grumpy. Oh Yeshua, give me patience please. "Hold me Jesus, cause I'm shaking like a leaf". If I could get on a plane right this second I would. But I am where God wants me at this second and its not on a plane. Sometimes I think God is just looking down on me and thinking, "If she would just wait a little longer," or "If she would just have a little more faith she would see,"; I wish I had that faith that moves mountains. There is a whole lot of mountains I need to cross. Sigh.

Dear God,
please refresh me with Your tender mercy and strength. Please help me be patient in this rough time. I hurt, but I know You are there for me. I shout, and You are listening. ALWAYS. Thank You Yeshua!! Please protect my brothers and sisters in La Villa, and the rest of the town. Please bless them and let Your love radiate throughout their village. Please help me not give up if this is Your will for me. Thank You for my family in La Villa and for all the kindness they showed me there. I pray You will feed and nurture them, and me and my family. I pray You will protect my family and lead them to You if they are far from You, or close to You. Please clear the way for me to Honduras if You want me there, and help me walk always in Your light and purpose for me.
Amen

Feeling a little sick today; I have a sore throat. Chai tea latte and 4 ibuprofen over the day have helped, and I know God will heal me. Thinking, thinking. I think (haha no pun intended) I will be up late tonight with a racing mind. Not looking too forward to that but maybe God will speak to me through that. Read Isaiah 43-45? today. I don't think I finished 45... Good read. God says over and over again, reminding us, that He is alone God, He is the ONLY one in control, and there is NO other. We tend to make SO many things our idols it's ridiculous. Yes, me. I do it too. I am no better than my fellow men and women walking this beautiful, yet corrupted world. God created a paradise, and we destroyed it. We would have so many less worries if we had just trusted our Savior. But, we blew it. I blow it everyday. Yet the God who created the universe looks at us again and again and says I LOVE YOU!! I will die for you, my precious child. Not my horrible sinner. Not the filth on my feet. He tells us straight out our sin, but we are called His CHILDREN.

Pause and think about that.

Simply



Breathtaking.
Amen.

I love You oh God

I am madly in love with You

I am madly in love with You. I am madly in love with You. All of my life and nothing less I offer to You, You're my righteousness.
-- Steve Fee; Madly

Headache day and Esther

Today I have had a headache pretty much all day. It has been a little bit of a downer, but my day has been pretty good. Took a couple boat rides with family, (on vacation), played a card game, and continued the book of Esther. Struggling to keep praying for going to Honduras and God's will while fighting tiredness. Will pray for strength in this hard time.

Dear God, please give me strength to make it through this time. I'm struggling and I need You so badly at this time. You are the only one who can decide my purpose. I can choose differently, but it will only lead me downward and away from joy. If it is Your will for me to go to Honduras, help the door be open. If You wish I do not return for it is not part of Your will for me, please shut the door all the way. Help me to be open to wherever You lead me. Please protect the people of La Villa de San Antonio and the pastor's family. Please guide them and feed them, bless them and keep them. I love You! Thank You for all the good things You have given me. I am so overwhelmingly blessed and I fail to see that so frequently. GRACIAS MI DIOS GRANDE Y MARAVILLOSO!! You are my YESHUA, my Redeemer, my Friend. Thank You for being my loving Heavenly Father. Amen

God is so wonderful and powerful. The earth shakes and wreaks at His command. The storms still at His single word. Our God is a GREAT one!!

Today

So here's today God. I pray for guidance and mercy for me, a sinner. I pray for the protection and spiritual growth of La Villa and that Your love will radiate through their village and beyond. I pray that I will only return if You see it fit. I miss them very much. Thank You for Your gifts and love that never end. Amen

Today was a beautiful day. I am missing La Villa and the open air there. I miss the people and their joy for God, for their Yeshua and Savior. Praise the Lord for His great works!

Reading Esther. :)

Reasons for return

Why do I want to return to Honduras?
The people
I have found it hard to be accepted here, and when I entered Honduras there were so many compassionate and accepting souls there. I know not everyone would accept me, but I felt home.
The land
Honduras is so gorgeous and God's handiwork just explodes at you
The spirituality
I understood the scriptures when it was taught to me. It was so real and amazing. It was indepth and strong.
The useful feeling
I felt so useful working there. Help building the church was so fulfilling. It was very hard to leave in the middle of it. I really wanted to help them finish.
The Children
The children brought me so much joy and I had so much fun chasing them around. Their smiles and giggles were so contagious
The mentorship
There were older adults there who were helpful in being there when I needed them the most. When I was sad and down-hearted they were patient and encouraging.
Love
I felt God's love so profoundly in Honduras, He felt so close and all-powerful. He has become more of that to me as I have been home, but I felt it so fully in Honduras as I relied on Him. He is making me beautiful inside, and I am realizing that I am beautiful because of Him on the outside too. For He made me
Mi amor -- he accepted me for me. When I was sweaty, dirty, and disgusting he loved me. I love his piercing eyes and gentle and fun spirit. We got eachother and had similar humor. He made me feel so beautiful

I believe God has called me

Prayer for my loves in La Villa

Praying continually for the People of La Villa.
The Pastor's son responded to my message today --

delaney you are so special thanks for your prayers and your attention toward our needs!! this is your home also you are a part of us also! will pray and in Gods' time you can visit us again!! we love you very much

I was very downcast when I read this for I believed it meant I could not return or not yet. True, I will not yet, but this does not mean I will not go or that it is not God's will for me. It is actually an encouragement and a blessing. Their home is my home, and I am a part of them too. I will have to rely on God, for He is the only way to true joy and fulfillment. I am feeling stressed, but will keep praying. Reading a great/hard book by Max Lucado. God is definitely speaking through that to me and also I believe through the Thessalonian books of the Bible.

Te Alabare
Te Glorificare
Te Alabare
Mi Buen Jesus

Thought of the day.. from me

Thought of mine for the day --
If you think you are ready to love, then be ready to sacrifice. You can't get one without the other

God's thought -- 16 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. 17 For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. 18 Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe stands condemned already because they have not believed in the name of God’s one and only Son. 19 This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but people loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil. 20 Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that their deeds will be exposed. 21 But whoever lives by the truth comes into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that what they have done has been done in the sight of God.
John 3:16-21

My sadness can turn into Your Joy

I feel my depression and anxiety kicking in... I hate this feeling. I feel so out of control and I just want to cry but I really can't. Yeah I will get the welled up eyes and the sinking feeling, but no full out crying recently. I miss Honduras and the people so badly. Mi amor also lives in Honduras, and I miss him greatly and pray for his safety every day. I don't want people to think that I only want to go back for him. Truely, I miss him so much it hurts, but it is so much more than him. It is a strong desire to be there and to serve the church. Right now I feel like no one really understands and if they do, they can't do much to help me. But in reality, the only one who can really help me get to Honduras is Jesus. My Yeshua and personal Savior. He has been helping me with encouraging people. I don't like being discontent with where He has me right now. My heart feels like it's breaking. I am trying to convey my love of Honduras to my family without sounding like I just want to get away from them. Because, that isn't true. Coming back actually really helped me realize how much they mean to me. I love them all so much. I have 5 sisters and 1 brother. I have a loving mother and father who are in love with each other and Jesus. They have brought me up well. They have put faith in God and hard effort in these years, and God has provided for them and rewarded their faith. They couldn't have done it without their heavenly Father, and neither could've I lived this life with this much joy without His help and assurance. Everything good that has and will come out of me is thanks to Him. I sincerely believe that and I love Him so much. It has been really hard for me to keep a strong assurance and faith in Him during this because I am WEAK and downhearted, and sinful. At the same time, it has increased my faith tremendously and I am so much more in love with my Father. I hate being a hypocrite and I really am trying to stay in touch with Him. It hurts and is really humbling when you find out how truly weak you are...how hypocritical and sinful. God is so holy and He has so many precious plans specifically picked out for different individuals. Yet we toss them aside and say No, I can do this better God. How foolish! I have felt so foolish lately and childish. You know why? I am not trusting God fully and am not fully letting go. Trying to rely on my own strength. I could sit back and say everyone does it, which is true for everyone at anytime of their life. But God has so much for me. I feel stuck trying to be perfect and do the right thing well fully knowing I can never be. Well that's my confession/sermon for now... Waiting for God's will and plan. In HIS time, not mine. Time to pray and read some more... Got some encouragement from one of the older college guys today about Honduras. God bless him for being a great mentor. I am truly grateful for his interest in my well being and consider him to be an older brother and role model. He wishes to return to Honduras too and I will be praying for him and God's purpose for him. I am also praying for my sister who is going to Nicaragua in January-May for a missions trip. I am very excited for her. Humanly, I do have some jealousy, but I am trying to counter this through prayer for my jealousy, for her, and by supporting her with my tithe. Right now my mind is a battlefield and I long for peace. But! If this is God's will for me to return to Honduras, and it is not all peace until then, I try my best to be satisfied in the peace that comes from God, and the assurance that in God, all things will be made right one day, and that He has plan and a purpose for me. He planned all my days for me before any of them came to be, before my birth.

Psalm 139:16

New International Version (NIV)


16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.

It's such an amazing verse that is so mind-blowing. What a great love He must have to plan the days of every single person in the universe before they were ever born
simply mindblowing
Hallelujah!

Never stop adoring Him, even in the pain

Discouraged and feeling down hearted. Missing Honduras so much. Cried last night... I just am having such a hard time being away..

Eres tu unica razon de mi adoracion oh Jesus
en todo tiempo te adorare

Amazement

Is so amazed at what God can do through just another sinner like me. Because to Him, I am not just another sinner. I am a unique creation, a piece of the puzzle to His masterpiece. There is nothing special about me from anyone else, yet He planned out every single day of my life, and what I would do.
I sent a message to the pastor's son (who is a pastor), and the woman on the merge team who lives down there to ask if there is a possibility for me to return for a few months. I sent it yesterday, and being unfortunately a impatient person I am anxious for their answer. I asked them to pray about it and talk with other church members. I am continually praying, and am trying to be patient. It is not one of my strong suits. If this is what I am supposed to do, God is definitely growing my patience in this situation. He is even if I am not going. Decided to keep tithing even though I am saving for a missions trip . My parents encouraged me to continue it and to even tithe when I am given gift money. The great thing about this is that my parents do it themselves, so I have an example to follow. They are not just setting forth empty advice. I truly am grateful for that. God is good all the time. Gracias oh Dios y Hosannah to the Highest!!

Verses for the heart

taking these verses close to heart as I am away from the ones and the place I love
1 Corinthians 13

1 If I speak in the tongues[a] of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2 If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. 3 If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast,[b] but do not have love, I gain nothing.

4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

8 Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10 but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears. 11 When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. 12 For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

13 And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

biblegateway.com -- Awesome site to look up verses and see translations

Babysitting, Purpose driven life, La Villa

Today I am so tired. It is hot outside and didn't cool off much from the rain. But I still am working my babysitting job nonetheless. I got the Purpose driven life! woohoo. and for free since it was not sold in my sister's garage sale. That is a highlight in my day. Talked to the pastor's son down there and it is going beautiful down there, and he is still working on construction in the church and he is also ministering to the youth with street evangelism. Oh how nice it would be to work construction down there now. I really mean it. Getting sweaty and dirty and building a church for God. Feeling His power and refreshing way in a job that many would hate.

Hard times, open ears.

Hard evening. Was THIS close to full out crying. I'm exhausted. I do not want to stop or give up, yet my fleshly body is crying out with frustration. I need to pray and seek God's will in His word and in the silence far more often than I do. I was upset at a major function that I attend in my life because I believed they were being hypocritical. Ever heard the verse about plucking your own log from your eye before you pick the splinter from your neighbor's? I was ranting on them for being hypocritical when I am was searching out God's will in his Word every day. How much better am I than them? None. Zip. Noodles. Nada. God wrote this huge love letter to me and I just shove it aside? Not cool. Not to mention disrespectful and adding coal to a fire the human race already started back with Adam and Eve. It is like I'm saying "God I have better things to do than pay attention to You and what You want." It's pretty humiliating. Humility is not one of my faults I usually think about. But yet, if you look closer at your life, it might just be an issue. Missing the sweet Honduras and it's people today. What a beautiful place. I hope to soon return. But that is up to God. I need to place this concern at His holy, precious feet and say "I'm done. I surrender." One of my older sisters wrote me a letter when I went away for a trip after Honduras, and she told me to surrender to Him. It has really struck home. Surrender. That fine nine letter word that changes the path of a life forever. Earned a little cash from selling cake pops at a garage sale and have a couple babysitting jobs. God has steadily provided for me, and that I am so immensely grateful for. So what's up God? I'm listening

One day at a time begins with Surrender to HIM

Is going one day at a time. Surrender is so hard because our human nature says I am in control, when in reality I hold next to nothing; if that. Days come when I feel I am going to give up but God gives me chance after chance. I don't know how He deals with me, except that He is God. It only goes to prove how lowly I am and how great He is to give me so much. He has filled my heart with His holy love, I am forever His

His Calling

When you feel a calling, it just doesn't stop nagging at your brain. Back and forth. Should I do this or not? Stressful nights where you just can't sleep. I believe God called me to Honduras and to its people. It is weird writing to nobody. But maybe one day it will be somebody. And if God uses that for good, then I am so honored. If not, this is still going to be one wonderful, hair pulling journey