Patience

Patience is hard. This year has stretched me so much in being patient, and holding tightly on to God. There are so many times when I hear that voice saying give up, it's not worth it. But the blessed assurance of the good things God promises to those who love Him has helped me to keep going. Nothing I am is mine, or is a result of me. I am a sinner, who deserves to be forever separated from my creator and from the free blessings he showers upon me. I want to work in missions. It sounds like it would be what God wants. But what if it's not? Or maybe it's not the right time. Maybe it will be one day soon. Maybe it will be when I am old and gray. Maybe there is a different plan for me. But that is the big thing. I AM NOT IN CONTROL. I WILL NEVER BE IN CONTROL. And that, is OK!! Thank you Yeshua, for never giving up on me. Patience, patience, for Your will