Contentment

Contentment -- “An internal satisfaction which does not demand changes in external circumstances”—Holman Bible Dictionary.

*Sigh* I am not doing good with my contentedness and patience right now. I feel this sense of urgency to be in Honduras and working for the Lord. But what if He is saying no right now? What if He is saying just wait a little longer? Or a lot longer? Things could change tomorrow, or they could change in 10 years. Maybe I'm not supposed to go at all.

But. You know what? I can still be content wherever God has me and be a light that shines for His amazing glory. That is my hearts desire and my life's purpose, to glorify my beloved Savior. I have "An internal satisfaction" no matter WHERE I am as long as I am searching for and living out God's purpose for me RIGHT now.

Philippians 4:11b-13 "I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. 12 I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. 13 I can do all this through him who gives me strength."

Wow. I'm hungry for this truth. I want to know the secret of being content in any and every situation. Yet it's right under my nose. I CAN do all this THROUGH HIM WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH.

Dear Father God,

You are all powerful Jehovah. Nothing, NOTHING in my life is too hard, too confusing for You. You know the minds and hearts of my parents, my authorities, and of ME. You know my passion for Your work and the mission field. You have my whole life planned out. You know the number of sand grains on the seashore just as You know the very hairs on my head. Nothing will happen to me before You have known it. This is blessed assurance to me. You have given me a passion to serve You, and I hope to carry this out one day in central America, but that is up to You. I'm feeling really confused, impatient, and not content. I believe though that You have placed the sense of urgency to serve in my heart, but also that I need to trust You and be content where I am at now. I put my whole life into YOUR hands. Let Your way be done within me. Please help me and my parents come into unity about the decision of my serving and where, please give us peace in Your holy name. Nothing else matters but doing Your will. Thank You for all the beautiful gifts You have placed in my life, including my family, my boyfriend, my church, my friends, my shelter, clothes, and food. You have NEVER failed to provide a way for me and all Your children. Please lead us Your children today, let us be a light for You. Please heal the strife and brokenness in our families by Your amazing love. Please provide for us, and let Your lost ones be found. Let everything happen in Your time, please oh Lord. Please protect us all from the evil one. I am Your servant, do what You want with my life to glorify You and Your Son. Please lead me with Your Holy Spirit. I love YOU!!!!!! Amen. Your daughter, Dee