Your First Love

God is good. I really need sometimes to just take a deep breath and say that. GOD IS GOOD. Some days are really tough. No joke. But God is shaping His plan for me and I just need to let go. Those two words 'let go' is one of the hardest things I have learned this year. Patience also. You know those sticky notes that you jot notes down on? I feel like I need one plastered to my face saying PATIENCE!... It's absolutely true. Everytime I start to worry I just try to say have patience, knowing that God is totally in control. *SIGH* That wasn't so hard was it? I admitted where my problem lies. Impatience, doubt. I just can't easily sit still and wait for God's best. And I'm going to mess myself up if I keep doing that. Like my title says -- This is a journey that doesn't end soon. Even when I provided with my purpose as an adult christian in this world, the struggles won't end. They never do. But you know what NEVER ends or goes away? GOD'S LOVE. My purpose right now is to listen to God, remain pure, remain loyal to MY First Love. GOD. For some reason I kept getting the phrase "remember your first love" stuck in my head. I couldn't figure out why... But then it all made sense. I need to stop getting stuck in the idols of worry, doubt, obsessing about romantic relationships, and much more. I need to just stop and remember my First Love. JESUS. The One who always looks out for me, never judges me by my outside, who sees the TRUE me and LOVES me UNCONDITIONALLY and COMPLETELY. What about you? Do you remember your First Love?