Homesick for Honduras

Extremely homesick for Honduras. Not in a great mood unfortunately... Aughh I really dislike being grumpy. Oh Yeshua, give me patience please. "Hold me Jesus, cause I'm shaking like a leaf". If I could get on a plane right this second I would. But I am where God wants me at this second and its not on a plane. Sometimes I think God is just looking down on me and thinking, "If she would just wait a little longer," or "If she would just have a little more faith she would see,"; I wish I had that faith that moves mountains. There is a whole lot of mountains I need to cross. Sigh.

Dear God,
please refresh me with Your tender mercy and strength. Please help me be patient in this rough time. I hurt, but I know You are there for me. I shout, and You are listening. ALWAYS. Thank You Yeshua!! Please protect my brothers and sisters in La Villa, and the rest of the town. Please bless them and let Your love radiate throughout their village. Please help me not give up if this is Your will for me. Thank You for my family in La Villa and for all the kindness they showed me there. I pray You will feed and nurture them, and me and my family. I pray You will protect my family and lead them to You if they are far from You, or close to You. Please clear the way for me to Honduras if You want me there, and help me walk always in Your light and purpose for me.
Amen

Feeling a little sick today; I have a sore throat. Chai tea latte and 4 ibuprofen over the day have helped, and I know God will heal me. Thinking, thinking. I think (haha no pun intended) I will be up late tonight with a racing mind. Not looking too forward to that but maybe God will speak to me through that. Read Isaiah 43-45? today. I don't think I finished 45... Good read. God says over and over again, reminding us, that He is alone God, He is the ONLY one in control, and there is NO other. We tend to make SO many things our idols it's ridiculous. Yes, me. I do it too. I am no better than my fellow men and women walking this beautiful, yet corrupted world. God created a paradise, and we destroyed it. We would have so many less worries if we had just trusted our Savior. But, we blew it. I blow it everyday. Yet the God who created the universe looks at us again and again and says I LOVE YOU!! I will die for you, my precious child. Not my horrible sinner. Not the filth on my feet. He tells us straight out our sin, but we are called His CHILDREN.

Pause and think about that.

Simply



Breathtaking.
Amen.

I love You oh God