9 months

9 months. That's how long it takes for a baby to grow, form, and become ready for this world they have not a single clue about. Funny, I've never been pregnant before, but I've been going on my own 9 month journey. 9 months of struggling against God, and with God towards what HE WANTS, and what I WANT for my life. Babies sometimes want to come out of the womb too early, or later than when they are expected. Sometimes I want to do things before its time, or put them off to a later date when I don't feel ready, or just don't want to do them. But God has plan a lot different than mine at times.. He has His own schedule, His own appointments, that I could never fully comprehend until we are face to face. If He says go, it MEANS go!! And if He says no, or not yet, it means WAIT, or I have something BETTER in mind. If you look at it on the other side, if a baby doesn't want to come out, it won't be forced (unless you have a c-section). If it wants to come out early, you usually can't stop it. That's like God too. If He is going to do something, He will do it, even if you think that you aren't ready. If He decides that you aren't ready, you won't get anywhere by trying to force the issue. Things happen in GOD'S time. If God wants me to return to Honduras and teach kids math, or help orphans and widows, or construct new churches and houses, IT WILL HAPPEN. BUT, in GOD'S TIME, NOT MINE!!! Thank You Yeshua, for holding on to me even when I try to fight against You. Help me to wait for Your PERFECT timing, and not try to do anything in my own time. AMEN