Forgiveness

I forgive you

I forgive you for saying that I'm just a copy cat by wanting to go into missions

I forgive you for saying that I have the wrong reasons

I forgive you for all the hurtful words you have brought against me

I ask you to forgive me for all the wrong I have wrought against you

Forgiveness -- What do you think of when you see this word?
I guess I try to forgive others, but sometimes really hurtful things don't slip past the 'forgiveness gate'. They stay in the gate. Wedged, waiting. Like all the times people have misunderstood me because they can't see my heart or they don't know Christ. How could I ever want to go into a field where I will never make good money? How could I 'waste' my skills by not going into engineering or even college right away, if ever? What if serving for religious reasons seems so crazy to my relatives who don't know YOU, Lord?
Thank You for helping me to forgive at last and to see that Your hand is always at work in my life. Please guide me and direct me for YOUR plans, not mine, not any one elses.
Amen